It’s Sunday at 10:25am. I have to leave in 5 minutes to meet with my client. As I’m getting ready, the thought occurred to me. Or should I say question? Can a messy, procrastinating person turn themselves into a Type-A personality? Or at least become closer to that?
I tend to drop my clothes where they are when I take them off. My desk is littered with papers and notes, xbox controllers, money, pens, etc. Random cords. My office is an expansion of that. Open drawers that are filled with all kinds of crap, file folders that hint at the few random times I’ve tried to be organized. A whiteboard that hasn’t been updated in a month.
The kitchen and bathroom are also prime examples of this lack of care. I just did the dishes because I was tired of the smell. The counters in the bathroom could probably make someone sick by looking at them.
I think this is evident of the way I take care of my body too. I bite my fingernails and peel away my toenails. I don’t shave as often as I need to. I definitely do not work out as much as I need to. I wonder how my mental state of mind is as well! They seem to all be connected together. I know I’m so much more productive and calm and happy when everything is cleaned and organized, yet when it comes to the moment, I do not put in the effort at all to maintain it. I basically do not make the time to be organized. I have not placed it high enough on my priority list.
Instead, I’ll spend hours reading the news, watching tv, playing games, doing whatever I can to procrastinate.
Sometimes I feel if I could be organized and (some word that is the opposite of procrastinating… I guess proactive?), my life would be so much better. I feel like I’m not at the place I want to be. I feel like I have so many ideas and goals that to truly accomplish I have to have organization. I think procrastination is the result (at least sometimes for me) of when I have a small break and I think of a project, but I think to myself that project will take much longer than my small break. Then I’ll start reading the news and the next thing I know, a ton of time has passed by.
One thing I also notice is that I’ll physically feel like I don’t want to do anything. That my head will hurt just a bit or that I feel tired. I’ve felt that way before when I’ve had a project or task that had to be done. Finally, when I was at the point of it has to be done now, somehow I was able to replace that tired feeling with a feeling of focus, excitement and adrenaline. Similar to being down in a tennis match, when I would talk to myself and say “let’s do this!” and get all pumped up.
Of course, I’ve tried other means of getting that motivation. Coffee, soft drinks, Adderall. Actually, they all almost end up making me more tired. Well… coffee isn’t that bad, but it sure as hell is not a means for providing motivation.
What’s really interesting is that, as I type this out and explore my original question with words and thought, I’m realizing a few things. That motivation has to come from within. That’s one thing. I basically have to either simply change my mind or maybe even trick my mind so that I maintain that high level of motivation to get things done. Second, I have to make the time for organization. That’s number two. Make the decision to do something I know I should be doing versus doing something else. For example, when I finish one project, it’s not time to celebrate and play games while I know I have several other projects to go. Talk about counter productive! Lol.
So far, these seem like the main two things. I’m sure as I go along in this journey, I’ll discover some more things as well.